I am supposed to be very happy, its after my midyears, but I dont know why, I just seem to be more upset before my midyrs. I just teared again, for no fucking reason. I hate this kind of feelings. Its like a little bit of sad stuffs from many sources coming together as 1. And it really sucks alot.

If tmrw, you're not online, I'm going to break.
Once again, you've managed to leave me in this kind of situation.
Once again, I had my heart cracked.
Once again, I am going to fall.

This one worse. Last post was 11th January. Die already sial.

i dont understand why. is it that everyone seems ultimately far from me or is it just me? seriously. whenever i see ppl enjoying in the jc orientations, the first thing that comes to my mind is _l_ i know i shouldnt be thinking this way but, fuck. i miss you guys and all you ppl do is OGOGOGOG FUCK man. you all are drifting away from me and i cannot even do anything. am i supposed to kill all those ppl in your og?! ):